Tuesday, May 17, 2011


How and why did I end up with this birth mom?  WHY?  I'm going to be 46 years old next month, and I still cant understand how I was born to this woman.  How is it possible?   It will be a cold day in hell when I betray any of my children.

Sure, I'm not perfect.  I make mistakes.  I've not been the perfect mother, friend, wife.  But who is talking about perfect?  Not me.  I'm merely saying this woman is like someone out of a horror flick.   How does she plot and plan against her own child?  What could be going through this woman's brain?

Friends ask me, "How did you end up so normal" --well, I answer,  "Maybe I'm not as normal as you think I am"  --Its taken me all these years to be able to not be spinning in circles, chasing my tail after learning what she has done, again.  I feel calm, but full of regret for even having any type of hope.

1 comment:

  1. reunion can be tough, as an adoptee, i never was sure what it would be like, and I am so happy for what I have with my mom now.