Lesson learned. Cannot trust those that are not blood related, except my own husband.
My help, my opinion, not needed nor are they interested in knowing it.
I am not trustworthy, they feel. I cannot be responsible for anything important, except for parent sitting when said relative decides to take our mother and her sister to a play. I then, can be responsible for 10 hours, and oh, don't forget that dinner I was reminded to plan in advance so when they arrive back from the play, they can eat! Because this relative of mine stated she has to work the next day, so she does not want to be at our parents house all night long! Oh, excuse me. Oh, and don't forget to get the ingredients for whatever your cooking, although our aunt had mentioned she loves pizza, and maybe a salad, because you won't be able to leave dad alone while we are gone! I guess I'm also an idiot, and have not raised 3 children, and somehow have forgotten how to cook...even though I am the one who usually does most of the cooking and baking at all our holidays over the years. Maybe they should just kick me in the rump and slap me in the face too. Gets better, I was also told to watch dad while my sister and mom took my aunt to the airport.
So this is how its going to be from this point forward. I will not go back to moms house unless I am asked, very nicely. I will never be anyone's maid, cook, or be used again.
The past year I have scrubbed pee off carpets, scrubbed floors, changed beds, cleaned house, laundry, windowsills all in the name of helping mom whiled dad is dying. Now, I see that my help, even though it was accepted, was not wanted. Wow, do I feel like a fool. I guess when I volunteered to put eye drops in my dads eyes and my mom would not trust me to do this, I should have gotten a clue!
My relatives forgot to let me know that a supposed important person in my life, my own mother, was going back to the cardiologist yesterday. Mind you I took her to countless doctor appointments in prior months, kept my lovely sister in the loop every step of the way. And my own mother is going in for an ultrasound on Monday for her carotid arteries, something that slipped their minds. As usual, I get a call many hours later from my mother, she left a message, once she realized that I somehow was forgotten in her plans. Oh, gee, I was not needed to baby sit my dad, or schlep her to the doctors, so I guess that is why I was forgotten. If I had not asked my sister about something, I never would have known. I am their last thought, and to be honest, I am sick of this. I cannot and will not do this again to myself.
This same thing happened when my mom went in for the actual procedure a few months ago, I had spent days at her house, each week, taking her to tests, appointments, etc, and when it came time, my sister arrived, and told me I was baby sitting my dad and she was taking mom. The next day after moms procedure, they both got up, got dressed, said nothing to me and off they went, for 3 hours and left me with my dad.
What other conclusion can I come to? Im important enough when I am taking care of dad all day and night and cook them dinner, so they can go see a play, but when my services are not needed, I am kicked to the curb, my feelings not important, keeping me informed, not important to them. I am the last person they think of. Im just free maid service.
Sad, heck yeah. But as my dear husband said yesterday after work, "I don't mean to make you feel bad or mad, but you don't need a mother" - that really hit me between the eyes. He is right, I do not need this mother, because she is not my mother. She is a woman, that took someone else's baby, and does not have the same feelings for this baby as she does her own. Nothing can be done about it, its not my fault, its just is.