How and why did I end up with this birth mom? WHY? I'm going to be 46 years old next month, and I still cant understand how I was born to this woman. How is it possible? It will be a cold day in hell when I betray any of my children.
Sure, I'm not perfect. I make mistakes. I've not been the perfect mother, friend, wife. But who is talking about perfect? Not me. I'm merely saying this woman is like someone out of a horror flick. How does she plot and plan against her own child? What could be going through this woman's brain?
Friends ask me, "How did you end up so normal" --well, I answer, "Maybe I'm not as normal as you think I am" --Its taken me all these years to be able to not be spinning in circles, chasing my tail after learning what she has done, again. I feel calm, but full of regret for even having any type of hope.
reunion can be tough, as an adoptee, i never was sure what it would be like, and I am so happy for what I have with my mom now.
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